I just read my subscribtions for the first time in a long time and I started crying. A lot is new in my life sinse I wrote last. I'm not going out with Kyle anymore. I thought it would be hard breaking up, but I just remember the week after we were forced to break up I felt so refreshed. He took so much out of me that I hadn't realized while I was going out with him. He distracted me from everything that was good in my life. I also never felt like I was good enough for him, which by the way if any guy does that to you then he's not right for you and you need to end the relationship immediatly! If you have to change who you are inside to make satisfy them, then you are only losing sight of who you are. At this time there was gossip at my youth group about this girl who had been through a similar situation. I then had it in my head that it was essential that I talked to her because I needed someone in my life that I could talk to and have them understand and give me support, and vise versa. I confronted her and we started talking and what not and I found out that she has an eating disorder. After the situation with her and her boyfriend, she didn't eat for 2 weeks. Coinsidentally we are best friends now. Spring break I went to California, and once again it was brought to my attention how much I hate the midwest. I wish I lived there soo much. I came back and told my now best friend about it and how I planned to move out there by myself when I graduate and she said that she would go with me and so now we are both planning on doing online schooling so we can finish up highschool early, save up money, and move out there. Along with everything else that I love there, there's a boy. Of course there's always a boy. He respects me soo much. And if I end up moving there when I graduate we might end up hooking up. Who knows? We message back and forth daily. As for me and my best friend, we have also planned on losing major weight before we head out. Great motivation. Right now I am home sick from school. I have no desire whatsoever to eat and I hope it stays like that.

Til next time beauties!

<3PaigeElyse