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Monday, November 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 20:43:57 GMT

I'm back.

Comments?

paigeElyse.

<333

Friday, May 05, 2006

Fri, 05 May 2006 20:00:34 GMT

I just read my subscribtions for the first time in a long time and I started crying. A lot is new in my life sinse I wrote last. I'm not going out with Kyle anymore. I thought it would be hard breaking up, but I just remember the week after we were forced to break up I felt so refreshed. He took so much out of me that I hadn't realized while I was going out with him. He distracted me from everything that was good in my life. I also never felt like I was good enough for him, which by the way if any guy does that to you then he's not right for you and you need to end the relationship immediatly! If you have to change who you are inside to make satisfy them, then you are only losing sight of who you are. At this time there was gossip at my youth group about this girl who had been through a similar situation. I then had it in my head that it was essential that I talked to her because I needed someone in my life that I could talk to and have them understand and give me support, and vise versa. I confronted her and we started talking and what not and I found out that she has an eating disorder. After the situation with her and her boyfriend, she didn't eat for 2 weeks. Coinsidentally we are best friends now. Spring break I went to California, and once again it was brought to my attention how much I hate the midwest. I wish I lived there soo much. I came back and told my now best friend about it and how I planned to move out there by myself when I graduate and she said that she would go with me and so now we are both planning on doing online schooling so we can finish up highschool early, save up money, and move out there. Along with everything else that I love there, there's a boy. Of course there's always a boy. He respects me soo much. And if I end up moving there when I graduate we might end up hooking up. Who knows? We message back and forth daily. As for me and my best friend, we have also planned on losing major weight before we head out. Great motivation. Right now I am home sick from school. I have no desire whatsoever to eat and I hope it stays like that.

Til next time beauties!

<3PaigeElyse

Friday, March 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 22:16:46 GMT

Okay, well I have to be the dumbest person on earth... Saturday night I snuck out with my boyfriend and it was all good and we didn't think we got caught... eh... but we did. And both of our parents know exactly what went on. This might seem too bad to any of you but both of us come from strict christain homes. Not only am I restricted from seeing him again and vise versa, I might be pregnant. haha- Anorexic and pregnant. Funny right?- How about not. I don't know what to do. My weight was going down too. There goes the 90's by this summer. I will still come on here if I am. Even tho I will be a complete fatass I still will be capable of giving support to you all and posting thinspo. I won't be mad if I am. It'll mean that my boyfriend and I will still be seeing each other, if you can see where I am coming from. And if I am not, I have no desire at all for food anymore. That means extreme fasting. I fasted from Saturday night to Tuesday by the way...

-Love-

PaigeElyse

Are there any blogrings for anas that got pregnant?

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 23:27:21 GMT

I'm back. Alrighty ladies, I've got some news. I am a dealer.... lol. Sorry, that sounds so weird. Don't freak out tho, it's not what you're thinking. This past week two girls have asked to buy diet pills from me.Weird, yes, but I pass as 18. Both of them have lockers right next to mine and we have agreed to keep it 500 calories a day- my idea because they are just starting out and I don't want to be too harsh on them. I am staying at 0-300. They aren't anorexic and don't know that I am. One of them has disorderd eating and the other I don't know. Track started Monday... I love it sinfully I swear. I have practice from 3:30-5:30. I have been training on my own along with that. I get up at 4:45 to go running and occasionally run before bed. I want to go to state sooo bad. I told my coach and he said that he didn't think that they have had a freshman go to state. I want it bad. My boyfriend is going to Australia for track this summer and I am just a wee bit jelous. Prom is coming up- April. I don't have a dress yet and I'm not really looking forward to getting one. I'm going with my boyfriend -of course- and he goes to a different school. I wouldn't be nervous about it if it wasn't for the fact that he's on prom court and that means attention. I want to put off 20 pounds by then. Realistic?- probably not. I've been feeling really dizzy lately. I think it is because I have been working myself way too hard and am not getting more than 4 hours of sleep a night at most. I am posting a recent picture of me. Gawd how I wish I looked skinnier.

***

<3PaigeElyse

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 20:42:33 GMT

There are things in this world that I cannot control. Like what time the sun goes down.

But there are some things I can.

The ball is in my court for what I put in my body.

And if it may end up being nothing,. Then more power to me.

My intake for this upcoming week WILL be 100 calories a day or less.

I will not dissapoint myself again!

That is a promise.

PaigeElyse

Monday, February 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 19:37:15 GMT

.........................fasting

I am home sick from school today.... I was wondering, is it alright to get your boyfriend chocolate for Valentine's Day when you told him not to get you any? Oh well. I got him other things too. Balloons, a scrapbook of us, boxers, and the chocolates. I am going to surprise him while he's at work.

Fashion Week

Richard Chai

Karl Lagerfeild

Nicole Richie and Michael Kors

at marc jacobs

Backstage Anna Sui

Jessica Stam ^

Backstage and front row at Michael Kors-- Heidi Klum

Project Runway: Kara Janx

Ralph Lauren

<3 PaigeElyse

Friday, February 10, 2006

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 02:03:28 GMT

Today I picked up the green tea pill, no problemo. And on with

FASHION WEEK.......

Anna Sui

Derek Lam

Marc by Marc Jacobs

Attendees

At Badgley Mischka

PaigeElyse

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 01:49:33 GMT

I stayed home sick today. Lost a pound and i'm happy about that, even if it was only one. So it is Fashion week and I love fashion, so I only thought it was fair that I put up tons of fashion week thinspo. Thank you guys so much for the comments and support!

BCBG Max Azria

the glasses are so sophisticated-- i love this look!

Betsey Johnson

skinny legs

Carolina Herrera

super cute dress

Marc Jacobs

absolutely gorgeous

James Coviello

I so heart the tights.....

Kai Milla

.... and this dress. <3 daring

Ralph Lauren-- okay so they are men... and they aren't thinspo, but I had to put them up because they are so damn hot.

Back Stage and front row at Badgley Mischka- Mary Kate and Ashley!!!

Linsay Lohan, Fergie and Nelly Furtado - Heart Truth

Marc Jacobs after party at 24 fifth Ave.

Adam Brody is such a babe...

and Nicole was there too...

*PaigeElyse

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 23:07:44 GMT

Heylo ladies...

How is everyone doing? Hopefully good. I am feeling pretty good right now. I didn't eat breakfast or lunch today. For dinner all I had was a turkey wrap from Subway which is 190 cals. *ouch*. I have lifeguarding tonight though so I will work it off in the pool. I'm not hungry so I will prolly not eat for the rest of the night. I have been drinking more water lately which one of my many New Years resolutions. Has anyone tried dexatrim? I heard it was pretty good. I think I may start the green tea pill. I just found out that I am going to Cali for spring break (super happy). We are going to be staying at a beach house w/ some friends that live out there. *excited* Def. a motivation considering I will be spending A LOT of time at the beach. I am really liking this challenge by the way. Feel free to comment....

Muah*

Thinspo

Gemma and Lily Cole

Gemma Ward

Mary Kate =)

*PaigeElyse

Friday, February 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 22:49:45 GMT

New point system for challenge....

Exercising 3 days or more per week: +5

Drinking 2 liters of water per day all week: +5

Keeping under 1200 calories per day all week: +5

Reaching your goal weight each week: +10

Updating your Xanga: +1 each day...commenting others:+1 per comment per site

Reaching Ultimate Goal weight by end of challenge: +50

BONUS POINTS!

500 crunches or more during the week:+10

Walking or running more than 10 miles per week: +10

Exercising at least 5 days of the week: +10

yup yup.. I haven't been too good lately emotionally. I don't know what to do anymore... I never eat breakfast. When I do eat lunch it is only 2 slices of cucumber and a little celery. When I eat dinner I have the smallest amount I can get away with and that is very little. I work out obsessively and weigh myself obsessively. I chart my weight 3 times a day. And yet I don't feel like I'm going anywhere. I'm so confused. I want to get diet pills so bad. Does anyone know if you have to be a certain age to buy them? If you do I'll get my friend to buy them. She has an ED, I know it. She has to be about the same size as Nicole Richie.

Paige